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romance novels: a wishlist

Tue, 25 May 2021 18:49:58 GMT

i was forced to make this post,
( the way taco asks for food is this: she will find me. she will stare longingly at me. i will ignore her for a while but eventually relent )

are we clear?

( why romance novels? )

( and finally, a wishlist )

footnotes

[footnote 1] i have a hard time finding women interesting in the same way i find men interesting. i want to argue that this is misogyny (internalized, otherwise), or some kind of deeply repressed lesbianism, or some kind of even more deeply repressed heterosexuality, but the boring answer is dysphoria, and the fact that people have a certain way of writing female characters.

[footnote 2] there is a certain way of doing addiction, like it's something that either doesn't exist and meaningfully affect people, or an abject state on par with being homeless or a whore or (you get the picture). instead of a thing that happens to people sometimes, a thing that some overcome and some don't want to overcome and that some succumb to (not necessarily overlapping with not wanting to overcome addiction). i like the struggles of recovering from addiction (stuck on the puzzle, my beloved) but it's not the only thing worth writing, and just once i'd like to see characters who are addicted be respected and not treated like failures and tragedies while they're still right fucking there. i want that for the real life addicts i know too (and the homeless and sex workers).

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Wed, 09 Sep 2020 06:26:26 GMT

i am definitely overthinking everything about persona and also sincerely bringing back both my latent lit theory and tarot interests solely to further persona 5 fic and this is a really bad sign but it also feels GOOD to be enthusiastic about things. *points at akechi* cringy trash baby. baby boy. evil. i love you

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